Truths I cannot speak out loud yet
I was raped
Consecutively, constantly
For three long years
Of psychological agony
I gave in to his manipulation
Because it felt good
To be loved and treated specially
And to have orgasms
Even if I squeezed a pillow
Over my face
To block out reality
And enjoy the sensations
Truths my brain cannot yet embrace
It was not my fault… any of it
Brain:
“It was partially your fault
You willingly went back to him
Every time he was there…”
You were manipulated
Brain:
“You weren’t even that young
You knew the difference
Between right and wrong
And this was definitely
WRONG…”
You were a child and a human
Not only
Were you in a vulnerable stage of development
But also
Your body responded naturally
Brain:
“You still willingly went to him
You had free will and you complied
You just wanted pleasure, you gluttonous pig…”
Truths I know in my heart
I am loved
I have value on this earth
I am valuable to humanity
I’m trying my best