Closing my eyes does not bring darkness
But regardless
It’s most crucial that I see
The images haunting me
I walk up to your door
Heart threatening to leave my chest
I knock with the best
Intentions in mind
Hoping you’ll give me the time
To speak honestly to you
It’s the least you could do
After all those years of inflicted wounds
You open the door a crack
And I’m on the verge of a panic attack
Seeing your face
Just like I remember
Brown and smooth like leather
Except now more weathered
I ignore the shock on your face
And glare deeply into your eyes
You WILL see me as a human
The soul you demised
And I tell you what you did
Remember when I was just a kid?
You subjected me to a life of manipulation
And through years of tribulation
Still, like air, I rise
I want you to see it in my eyes
I tell you you’re a monster
Your twisted lies
Saying you loved me
Then using me for your own pleasure
A pawn on your chest board
It was all your fault
None of it mine
I need to make this real for you
So this event that changed my life
Is more than just a shadow in your mind
I want to inflict wounds with my words
And tell you how I currently thrive
Motivated by the drive
To change people’s lives
Little girls like me
Who were deeply deprived
And violated through lies
If you feel no remorse
I’ll let nature run its course
One day I’ll speak on behalf of those
Who were violated and exposed
Who are too scared to disclose
The workings of demons like you
I know I need to do this
To make it all real for me too